small thoughts
as you sit and start to count, can you tell how many times have you let the possibility of chances fly by? can you count the number of times you have wished on a shooting star or perhaps, at 11.11 just so that your wishes will come true? have you ever wondered, if things could return, would you want the same thing to happen once again? there will always be many ifs, assumptions, imaginations, as well as predictions, but have you ever questioned yourself what do you truly want before making further divination and conclusions?
personally, i am one to always regret on the decisions i have made because honestly speaking, i make crappy decisions and when i am keen on a point that i have made, i will never change my mind or even have a single doubt. truth to be told, this sucks because i wrap myself with my blanket, believing that my decisions are right; despite the fact that i can foresee myself crying and wallowing in the consequences, i choose to ignore the signals because i am a self-centered bitch who thinks i am right all the time. as accurate as hitting the bulls-eye when playing darts, it will always be a wrong closure that will result to guilt and regrets eating me bit by bit, which makes pain a lot worse than imagined. i have always wanted to know how would it feel like to be able to make the right decision once and not regret it but i will never get an accurate answer because just living in general, sucks a whole lot. in my opinion, humanity itself is already a cruel creature but society comes along to pollute it in a whole, which makes all of us feel worse.
it is always easy to point fingers at others saying that it is them who have let you down when a particular nasty situation comes up but have you ever thought that if you did not choose to believe or expect anything from the other party? would it have helped or change the situation in any way? or did you just selfishly saved your heart from being shattered by disappointment again?
i guess, it is no new news that humans like you and me choose to be naive or to phrase it in a more pleasant manner, have a soft spot for a specific person/thing. over and over again, we would give chances and rather forgive just because everyone of us do have a big heart and would be willing to give, only to the ones we are mindful of. in conjunction, we should be blaming ourselves instead of others trusting them. this feels like welcoming people we love with our arms opened but getting stabbed instead with a knife. paradoxical, isn't it? thus, i would end this with asking, do you think it should be our fault for wanting to believe, or is it the other party's fault for betraying the assurance of faith that we have in them?
small thoughts
as you sit and start to count, can you tell how many times have you let the possibility of chances fly by? can you count the number of times you have wished on a shooting star or perhaps, at 11.11 just so that your wishes will come true? have you ever wondered, if things could return, would you want the same thing to happen once again? there will always be many ifs, assumptions, imaginations, as well as predictions, but have you ever questioned yourself what do you truly want before making further divination and conclusions?
personally, i am one to always regret on the decisions i have made because honestly speaking, i make crappy decisions and when i am keen on a point that i have made, i will never change my mind or even have a single doubt. truth to be told, this sucks because i wrap myself with my blanket, believing that my decisions are right; despite the fact that i can foresee myself crying and wallowing in the consequences, i choose to ignore the signals because i am a self-centered bitch who thinks i am right all the time. as accurate as hitting the bulls-eye when playing darts, it will always be a wrong closure that will result to guilt and regrets eating me bit by bit, which makes pain a lot worse than imagined. i have always wanted to know how would it feel like to be able to make the right decision once and not regret it but i will never get an accurate answer because just living in general, sucks a whole lot. in my opinion, humanity itself is already a cruel creature but society comes along to pollute it in a whole, which makes all of us feel worse.
it is always easy to point fingers at others saying that it is them who have let you down when a particular nasty situation comes up but have you ever thought that if you did not choose to believe or expect anything from the other party? would it have helped or change the situation in any way? or did you just selfishly saved your heart from being shattered by disappointment again?
i guess, it is no new news that humans like you and me choose to be naive or to phrase it in a more pleasant manner, have a soft spot for a specific person/thing. over and over again, we would give chances and rather forgive just because everyone of us do have a big heart and would be willing to give, only to the ones we are mindful of. in conjunction, we should be blaming ourselves instead of others trusting them. this feels like welcoming people we love with our arms opened but getting stabbed instead with a knife. paradoxical, isn't it? thus, i would end this with asking, do you think it should be our fault for wanting to believe, or is it the other party's fault for betraying the assurance of faith that we have in them?
