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Sunday, 25 December 2016 | 0 comments
On 31st December 2015, at 11.59pm, I remember picking up my phone and dialing numbers to wish my close friends for new year; the picture is so clear in my mind like it just happened yesterday. it's christmas today and 2016 is ending very, very soon as the earth is going to finish spinning one round around the sun. As cliche as it sounds, there were so much tears shed and laughter which were shared; many memories collected with nightmares that still haunt. I would not say that it was the best year but neither was it a bad year. Overall, i learned a lot this year and had ups and downs but i am truly grateful. This post today will be a special post with pictures because they describe memories more than words will ever do. warning: the level of importance of these people do not follow by the sequence of how i upload my pictures because i just place in whatever i can see first. 


i am pretty sure this person will not see this at all but you're one of the people who made my 2016 a really happy year!! i do not really know what to say to you because from being close, we have distant so much because i changed school and you're also too busy to reply my texts? (nah i don't reply to yours too what am i even saying) anyway, i hope everything goes well and fine and study hard for igs because i know you got this okay? don't be sad over people who does not care and i love you hehe


ah yes, you. i am confident you might not see this either but if you do, hello. i swear though, you were like the first person in school i found hot when i first came and i literally admired you very much. i did not want to know you because i would just like to keep the you're-a-stranger-i-find-hot kinda relationship until i found started interacting with you after knowing kx and all. literally after knowing you, i did not put you under my hot boy list because i don't put my friends under them i'm sorry to say. no doubt to say that you are hot, you are caring and you have literally every trait that can make any girl fall head over heels for you so easily like it is nothing. i guess, because you know this well and so you take this advantage to be a player? oh well, i sincerely hope for nothing but the best for you in your future but you have became really cocky though, so whatever.


as for you, you are one of people that i really treasure and appreciate i guess. i remember knowing you from seeing the list of people who won in sports day and you were one of them because your name was in a category with the people who i found have really funny names. i even made a sentence of the three names together without even needing to add any words (i actually admire my talent yOZ) i guess i did not talk to you at all until the facebook post that i posted and you commented. then jian long also came and i guess we started talking from there. it is surprising how you become someone so important to me when i never expected this to happen at all. we have a number of happy memories together even if it was just for a short span of time and i do not regret anything. i miss you a lot sometimes but there is no point going back i guess because everything is so broken and messy now. i sincerely hope for the best for you and i know you will achieve your dreams.


(i dont know where did our single photos went oh my) but this is for you alanis hehe. so, even though i know that we are not really close, i still find you a really open person and i can literally talk to you bout anything because at one point, i know you will rant with me too and we can go all day with just one topic. from being haters because of rach's problem, we happen to be in the same school coincidentally and being closer now than before. i am really grateful for you being a part of my life and i hope you last long with haizqal too okay hehe <333


hi en en, idk if you will even bother to see this but if you do, thank you. i am very grateful to be your friend and until today, i do not regret the decision to go home with you in the same taxi and most of all, following adam they all to look for you and jk. our friendship is actually really funny because we literally started from disliking (hate is a strong word oh no) to being close now (i dont know if you consider us close though) you're still 15, 还有大把的青春啊; don't always be unhappy over fuckboys and friends that do not even care about your feelings. ok i know i said this 920147946 times but nothing is forever and you do know that!! no point investing so much of your effort over people that are really temporary right? i hope in my future days, i still see you in them and i love you, remember that!! all the best xx. 


i am really happy at one point to be able to be your friend because you are really nice and caring to me and at one point, i did pity you too when you told me how you truly feel and i do like you, i still do a lot. i guess, our friendship started going downhill the moment you started dating kx. well, i have already told you what is the matter honestly but in general, you are cool but i guess a little too sensitive at most times and we distant a lot? anyway, just remember that i am still here for you if anything happens i hope your relationship stays strong with kx and be happy!! ily xx


at one point, i don't think i have much to say to you too because i feel like we are close but not close too. this friendship tbh very weird la ok!! AHHAAHH anyhow though, you will always call me up to rant about your problems and after that it seems like you will be okay already but you still come to me and rant, so i guess our relationship is a listener and a teller?? anyhow though, i do appreciate you a lot too but sometimes i do not know how to talk to you, maybe because i still feel a bit weird? i sincerely hope we will be closer very soon and i do see you in my future i guess. goodluck for checkpoints and being in g18, okay? heheheh <33


hi cia cia, you are one of the most friendships i have because it started off badly too (我很讨厌她 咧) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ok anyway, you also know what i wanna say de la, i actually hope you will quickly get together with ehem because only you can control that devil because clearly, i don't understand his species at all to be honest; is he even human to start with? and also right, you deserve happiness all the way after being hurt. you are really cute too okay, don't keep lying saying that you don't have a boyfriend when you might already have one but you don't want to tell us HEHEHEHH *winkwink. please improve in your accounts and i am having a hard time being your mentor when you already understand but still can't do when the question twists :( i love you ok don't bully me liao heheheh


hello macha <333 you are nothing but a pain in the ass to be really honest. half the time you complain that i do not reply you but you reply me after 397392021 hours later which makes me feel so annoyed. you are the only person i regret knowing yaknow it's like the biggest mistake i make in 2016 HAHAHAHAHH ok jk luv u. anyway, you are always unhappy and you have a lot of problems and at one point i wish i can be there for you to help you out but i know i can't because you won't tell me too. it's alright, everything will be fine okay? keep believing that there is hope and weng weng and your gang of friends love you dearly okayyy (me too!!!)


hello 小妹妹, i don't get why you always call me jie jie like excuse you but i am NOT AS OLD as you think ok!!! you make me sound so old at one point when i am suppose to be really cute and young i even look younger than you and you call me jie jie o win lo. i honestly do not remember how we know each other oh my. we shall skip that and talk about how are we now!! we have god knows how many days of streak ooooo heheheh and you are also constantly unhappy too!! as i have already told you before (actually i have already told you everything i wanna tell but i am repeating everything again) you are too naive and you think the world is suppose to be good to you just because you are good to them, but it does not go this way hun. however, appreciate whoever is really there for you when you're at your lowest (trust me it's definitely your family) and also protect your heart well, don't let it break over and over again, okay? heheh i luv uu. 


foo gor gor heheheh hello!!! i don't have much to say to you because you also know what i want to say liao de la!! you are a nice friend and i miss school and prep classes with you omg it is nothing but laughTER AHHAHAHAHAH. you have told me a lot about your problems (actually no la not a lot also but got la) and i understand that it is going to be difficult but it is alright ok!! everything will be fine soon!!! please get a phone soon because i am still very angry at you for breaking our streaks and it was like a 40+ days streak i am still mad and i still hate you for it ok!! to more h2h talks and more prep classes (fighting mr k) with you!! thank you for being a part of my 2016 and bringing happinesss!!


你的我打华语 actually no need you can do english perfectly fine too, right? yes you can okay let's go. firstly, i will have to say thank you for being my listener, listening to me talk about my sensitive problems without judging me but help me think of ways to solve them and be over and okay. thank you for being there for me and giving me advices of life and making sure i am okay by checking up on me once in a while. i guess we became distant ever since i told you that you started being close to chauen instead of me (but now i am closer to her than to you omf HHAHAHA) anyway, i know you do have your own set of problems too and you told me too but 你有跟我讲过 很多东西都是雨过天晴的;我相信 你的问题迟早有一天会有解脱的。若你有什么事不开心 要记得找我因为我为你 always online. AHAHAHHAHA ok ai ni ai ni 大哥。


你的我特别写华语。你是在你们三个当中跟我最close 的。我应该谢谢那天我读到那些名字才会认识到你吧?嘻嘻。虽然你真的的却蛮丑 HAHAHAHAHAH 但你是一个很有风度的男生,把妹的技术也有两手,说真的 做你妹妹的确是蛮幸福一下因为你很疼你的朋友。有时候 你不开心的时候你也会来找我跟你聊心事 而从那边 我也会开始比较了解你的为人。当我不开心的时候 在跟我讲着话的你会很容易察觉到 然后你就会要我一五一十讲出来。你也很体贴啦因为知道我会胃痛 所以给了我点钱叫去补习之前要去买sushi吃。这些滴滴点点的回忆 我一定不会忘记。谢谢你在我孤单的时候陪我讲话,在我很懊恼不开心的时候你跟zw都会在skype逗我笑 可是你们很爱欺负我 我那么可爱你们怎么舍得欺负我的 HAAHHAAH 可是老实说 虽然你在怎么努力要我开心 我有时候会很不想理你因为每次都是重色轻友 很sien lo lol. 每次想跟你讲话时候你会不知道在哪里跟她在一起 可是在怎么不喜欢 身为朋友的也要尊重的。我希望你可以都好你的书 不要讨厌老师了 我也希望你和她可以长长久久到结婚 到时我要做flower girl 啊!! HAHAHAHAH


你的也是打华语吧,我很体贴是吧?嘻嘻。你跟我不是说很close可是你还是我的最独一无二的怪叔叔ok HAHAHAHAHA(我知道你很讨厌这外号但没关系 我喜欢 HAHAHAHHA) 谢谢你每次都会跟我skype逗我笑 若我不开心的话 你也会逗我和讲很多烂笑话 然后在我生气时候 会听我讲话 然后有时候也跟我一起讲那个人的坏话。谢谢你 会有事在学业帮到我 虽然你天天都在种菜和打 boss HAHAHAHHAH。我希望在未来的2017年 你还会一样当我的三个 (怪叔叔) 也不要再一直欺负我了ok!! 嘻嘻 爱你爱你 <33


you are the one sakai friend that i have who is beyond retarded than ever tbh HHAHAHAHAHA. ok so here's to your first appreciation post (maybe not first but second or third?) after being friends for 7 (near 8) years. back in bsi, thank you for bitching bout people in general with me but you ended up being so cold to me when you started talking to chloe lmao. thank you for the memories and so many pictures taken that is lost somewhere in the sea like how did they disappear but i guess that's not important as long as we remember them? i really miss the days in bsi when we were going to take our upsr oh my that includes us standing on the chair because we pissed ms imi or whatever her name is HAHAHAHAHAHH. i never expected us to still be so close now after you left school but here we are. thank you and kx for being there for me because my eyes were soaked with tears when he broke me into pieces and thank you for reminding me my worth. i treasure our friendship a lot and i hope you remember that i will always be there for you at your lowest low and your highest high, okay? you always tell me to not let boys hurt me so much but you need to remember to apply that rule on yourself too okay please. lastly, we will definitely meet up soon after our igs with kx and we will make the laser tag outing a successful one. remember well that i love you, alright? xoxo.  


as for the 4 of you, thank you for contributing some happiness to my 2016 too. though i don't think you will see this, but i am truly grateful for being your friend. although we have too many problems between us and sometimes it is really difficult to be friends again, i do not know why i still put effort into this friendship. i like how we have been all toxic for 4 years yet we still stick together collect a number of good memories that i would never trade anything for. i sincerely hope that our unspoken problem will resolve itself soon and we will be as close as before. i love y'all and good luck for spm okay? you got this!!!


we finally have a decent photo oh my i actually like this photo because you loOK GOOD HERE I SWEAR DFCESJRFMWJEIQ HEHEHHEHE. i swear if you look back at our past, we are actually tragic as fuck but i have thank you though, you still never left despite how many times i have pushed you away. you are like those 打不死的蟑螂omg HAHHAHAHAHAH OK I SHOULD STOP JOKING. thank you too, for listening to the one problem i have for 293820208 times and constantly telling me to get my shit together eventhough i know you get so tired of listening to me talk about it over and over again. thank you for making lame and stupid puns with me then laughing at it like we are psychotic (i think only we understand this HAHAHAHA) and also me sending you jokes on the internet and us laughing together. thank you thank you thank you, for being a part of my life, colouring my black and white canvas. remember that i love you and also, stay sweet with ehem okay? i wanna be your flower girl too in your wedding thanks xoxo.


woah i finally found a photo of us man like after 3974820 years later zzz. to be honest right, i have literally told you everything that i wanna say now but okay, bear with it, read it, and add in extra info that you remember of me saying ok. this might not be long since you know all that i wanna say so i am trying my very best to make this new info for you. thank you for these 4 years, believing me and standing up for me when we were having our fights, being close and having a lot of unspoken memories. we have now evolve to being the bestest friends ever and i have to admit that you are the closest to me other than my mom and my dad. i think we are now too awkward to even say an i love you but i can't help but cringe when i say it to you (yea you get what i mean) i definitely see you in my life until i die and i hope you do too!! lastly, please remember our promises such as our after igs adventure and also promising to be like an auntie, bringing our sons and daughters out together to play while we gossip HAHAHAHAHA.


yoz don't worry though, i look equally as ugly as you are okay HAHAHAHAH but this is the only photo i have of you idk why i think we need more photos together ok. so, 你是一个很38的人ok HAHAHHAHAHAHAH BUT HELLO MY KRYSTAL, 我知道虽说你很喜欢说你自己美 可是在你心里你根本都不觉得你美 不要失去信心啦 因为 "confidence is beautiful" ok 所以你再这样自恋下去其实也是一件好事来得 HAHAHAHH. 谢谢你 每次都弄我们笑因为你有很多很奇怪的想法都是跟我们分享的。谢谢你在我不懂数学时候会教我 (虽然还是很差啦 but ok),还有谢谢你在我生气的时候 你都会听我发泄然后一起跟我讲坏那个人 HAHAHAHAHAH;也谢谢你在我不开心的时候 不会多问 只是陪着我 逗我开心,还有每天都跟我说很多exo和戏剧里面的东西 省了我的时间因为听你讲故事就可以了。有你这个朋友我感到很开心因为和你在一起的时光都是美好的。谢谢你,出现在我的青春里。虽然很肉麻 可还是要说一句我爱你。

hi jie, i never really told you or wrote you a really long essay or anything but here goes one ok hehehe. 其实刚来到时候 我觉得一直扯着jw 和 ps 让我感到很像我是被丢下的那个因为你不喜欢我。后来 不知道我们怎么会变得熟了 可能是因为你们学校的halloween party 吧? 你给我的感觉就是 在我们当中 你是最幸福的那个因为你好像没烦恼一样;或许你有可是你不让我知道吧?我知道我们还没有close到可以听你的心事可是你要记得 如果你有一天有什么不开心的事情想发泄的话 记得我们在这里为你24/7 online 哦。虽然我们现在都不同的学校了 但我希望我们的友情都不会变 我们都会一样那么爱彼此。谢谢你 给了我很多美好的回忆 也在2016给了我一个很完美的结束。我希望我们的友情可以从现在开始直到永恒。我知道我姐姐是很会读书的 你的igs 你一定会考到很好成绩的 嘻嘻 爱你哦 <3


you will always be my fav hoe heheheh. i think i have a really bad start with all of the people whom i am friends with, let's be honest HHAHHAHAHA. one of the things i live for in 2016 is probably our midnight 1am skype calls to talk about life or many other things in school. i guess we got ourselves close from there too!! this all started when school asked us to do a yearbook and our pictures were really retarded but i was really happy at that time. let's not forget bout our jokes during maths classes and our laughs and complains with g15. i thank you, haizqal, jordan, zoe and everyone in class for being a contribution to my happiness this year. i am really lucky to know y'all and i would never want to trade anything for this friendship at all cost. i love you and you will do well in igs, i'll see you then, alright?


i don't think i have much to say to you because you know literally everything that i want to say to you already when we had our talks in Pavillion, but i will have to be honest too, i guess? sometimes, i get really jealous of you because you have a really smart brain and pretty face and you can be defined as perfect already. we have a lot of rants together with cbg (not cbg tbh you know what i mean) but we are not that close because you are closer to ps than me imo? thank you for constantly caring for me and ranting about many many things with me. though i don't know a lot about you, i hope you won't have trust issues with us anymore and will tell us more because i wanna get to know you better!! thank you for bringing colours to my 2016 and i look forward to more shopping and outings with you!!! since 2017 is coming, please reply my snapchats more and love me more ok thanks ilyt <333


i guess we started off really bad because i always thought you were like a bitch and a player and you thought i was loud and annoying HAHHAHAHAH sorry lmao anyhow though, i am actually grateful for being around you because you make me laugh a lot even when i am sad most times. let's not forget bout you will always sing 你,好不好 to your streak friends and every time i hear this song now i always think about you HAHAHAHA. you are always thinking bout koreans and i guess they make you happy as much as i do, right yea because same i am so lovable. i hope in 2017  we get to go out for more shopping adventures and invent more poses to pose when taking a photo and i also hope you will get over ehem and love me more thanks luv u too

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